OPPS I DID IT AGAIN!!!

This has nothing whatever to do with Britney's classic track.  But today I am sitting here typing with a thumping head which is hyper-tension caused by over indulgence last night at the pub.  I have to REMEMBER that I am a kid in a sweetshop at the public house and stop drinking and grow up.  When I was typing the previous posts about my red wine habit I did feel fairly determined but over the last month or so I have been more and more indulgent and surprise surprise, got more stupid (or stupefied) and fat.  I am still in pain and only a walk outside for 30 mins and a portion of chips .... has made me feel a tiny bit better.   So will I actually bloody stop this time, clearly (and similarly to my attempts to stop smoking in years gone by) cutting down is just not a workable option.  I am hurting and I have to be very careful as my blood pressure high and wants to burst forth from my ears - I can feel it.   

I have been invited to a 3-day binge event - well that wasn't how the invite was extended but it involves those with whom I was drinking last night and I know exactly how it is likely to pan out and I just have a feeling that going away with them for a long weekend house party that involves so much drinking, ultimately wouldn't be enjoyable, or at worst, I might not recover from it. 

I have NO willpower.  I have NO off-switch.  I have NO bloody sense.  I have NO control.  Not as bad as when Britney went off the rails a few years ago and kept going our on boozing sessions in short skirts and no knickers, but the potential for trouble is at ....           DEF CON 1

I think I will have to be honest with mien host and decline the fun and frolics. 

My head is still thumping and not in a good 'Bambi & Thumper' way.... ahhhh.  I might now have to consider consuming sugar in the form of a picnic bar.  This is the other problem with recovery, I would never normally consider such unhealthy snacks but so far today I have had a good start, fresh fruit & plain organic yoghurt but the train journey in was pretty horrible and claustrophobic and so at the station is was a hot spinach and ricotta roll, a (free) tall Signature Hot Choc and then the herb covered hot chips and now a caramelised onion & gruyere tart - so far I am resisting the chocolate bar. - talk about 'middle class' recovery food, I never was one for a greasy spoon fry up and tea in a chipped mug.  I used to get hangover cravings for very cold diet Coke back in the day but I think it was usually a Sunday lunch time meal in a pub or hours of toast & Marmite. But of course this all adds up to calories and FAT.

I am now over 12 stone and at somewhat of a short-arse, so is just not sustainable! 

The benefits of drinking: social glue; the lovely detached feeling from reality; alter-ego; lovely taste (if the wine is half way decent!); fun and good times. 

A day without wine is like a day without sunshine

The downside of drinking: overindulgence leading to - feeling hideous; guilt; binging leading to fat; high blood-pressure; liver disease; obesity; diabetes; accidents; injuries; dangerous situations; talking bollocks; being a nuisance; a bore; a tedious twat. 

Alcohol is a good preservative for everything but the brain 

ALWAYS DO SOBER WHAT YOU SAID YOU'D DO WHEN YOU WERE DRUNK, THAT WILL TEACH YOU TO KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHOUT

AVOID USING CIGARETTES, ALCOHOL & DRUGS AS ALTERNATIVES TO BEING AN INTERESTING PERSON

HERE IS TO ALCOHOL: THE CAUSE OF, AND ANSWER TO, ALL OF LIFE'S PROBLEMS

REMEMBER