Over the last few weeks I have been increasing aware of a medium term decision forming and it has finally popped fully formed into my brain and the rest of me is in agreement. It has been very difficult getting to this stage but I am starting to feel very good about it. I have not decided to give up on 'Plan A' completely but as it is, in reality, still so far from getting off the starting blocks financially, I am going to put
Nourish &
Quench and all related thoughts, research and conversations into a box marked 'back burner'. Instead I am going to
nourish and
quench myself and focus on getting my mind and body ready. Should nothing ever come of 'Plan A' - and that thought does make me sad - then as the image above suggests, there is always 'Plan B', 'Plan C' etc etc which I am confident will emerge. However, I am still struggling a bit to relinquish
N&
Q and everything that goes with it but then I have been enveloping myself in this bubble for almost four years. So I accept I will be transitioning for a while and to decide to just forget Plan A (i.e. go cold-turkey) would indeed be painful: no longer volunteering at the cafe and when I am an actual cafe customer, it would mean not analysing everything I eat, drink and see but relaxing and just simply enjoying the experience - WHAT!
Still, I figure, if I focus my energy and efforts on my mind, body and spirit for the foreseeable future, then I will be match fit if and when I decide the timing is right. Clearing the mental path will hopefully really help me clarify what I actually want but at the moment I am bordering on obsession and failing to fully enjoy the present.
A mirage will never
quench my thirst!
Nourish & Quench
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